Going Nuts...more
Apr. 22nd, 2004 06:30 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
schmoomomI'm going through a bit of what I felt in December and January, that started my whole thing. And that scares the shit out of me. I want to just be fucking normal, you know?
I need to get away, but I don't want to go anywhere.
I saw an old friend yesterday at Home Despot. It was weird. And...I don't know. He asked what I was doing, and I said I gave up my career when we moved to IE, cause it was hard to get into there. And now I'm just with P all day.
Then I saw Pierce Brosnan on tv this morning, and I know that I could work on one of his films. I know I could. I have enough connections. But then B can't work, cause P would need looking after. and I can only work on films in Ireland, cause I don't want to be alone in LA. And that just feels wrong to do to B. But seeing him on TV made me think how much I've given up. I had finally found something that fit, and now I can't do it.
I need to get away, but I don't want to go anywhere.
I saw an old friend yesterday at Home Despot. It was weird. And...I don't know. He asked what I was doing, and I said I gave up my career when we moved to IE, cause it was hard to get into there. And now I'm just with P all day.
Then I saw Pierce Brosnan on tv this morning, and I know that I could work on one of his films. I know I could. I have enough connections. But then B can't work, cause P would need looking after. and I can only work on films in Ireland, cause I don't want to be alone in LA. And that just feels wrong to do to B. But seeing him on TV made me think how much I've given up. I had finally found something that fit, and now I can't do it.
