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[schmoomom]

I'm in my fog again. I don't get it. I hate being me. I'm not a good mom, I'm mad that DH postponed mother's day and then forgot about it. I don't want to use my free time to do stuff for teh house. I feel like I'm losing me. The house is a wreck, my mother is always looking around and cleaning it up. I don't want to be around P. I'm floating. I'm tired of it.

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[lillibet.livejournal.com]

Sweetie, I'm really worried about you. It sounds like you're really worried about you, too, which is good. Are you talking to anyone professional about this stuff? I know I always say this, but it sounds like you need to get a break somehow, get to do some fun stuff, reconnect with things that excite you, that kind of thing. Maybe it's time to go back to Ireland? You're always welcome to come visit us, with or without either or both of the boys. But you need to shake loose of this, one way or another. What can I do that will help?